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Tuesday, December 25, 2012

MOTHER'S WISHES

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It all started as a punishment when i was about 13. When i had done something wrong in her eyes mother dressed me up completely as her pretty daughter. And as our family was seriously wealthy she did it in style and costs did not play a role she really went all out with it. It was pretty partydresses, beatifull wigs, expensive shoes and all the trimmings. I was quite a slim puny boy with soft features so the result was impressive to say the least. Initially i found it all horrible and cried a lot and tried everything not to displease her and get punished again but in the end she always found some reason as she sort of had fallen in love with the idea of me as her glamourous little princess. After a while i kind off reconciled myself with my fate and almost started to like it as the awfully pretty girl in the mirror kinda awakened sexual feelings in the pubescent teen i was. And then there were the sensual feelings the clothes themself provided, the feel of silks and satins on my teenage body, the restrictiveness , the heels, the stockings. It was both confusing and exciting. Of course mother encouraged and stimulated these feelings. And she didn't stop at the clothes, it was deportment lessons, speech lessons, ettiquette and what she called girl lessons in which i was actually taught how to think as a girl by reading certain romantic books and magazines. By this time i was a girl most of the time when i wasn't at school.
By the time i was sixteen i was almost completely brainwashed and mother loved it. The partyfrocks had become classy designer cocktaildresses and promgowns and the heels had gone from 3 to 5 inch. The undies had gone from girly to stunningly glamourous and sexy. At that time mother also decided that i had to get used to the presence of boys and men so she encouraged her ladyfriends to bring their sons, nephews and other familymembers along when they would visit us. At first this really scared me and i cried and begged her not to do this to me but she was relentless. At first it was just them being there and seeing me but in time she started to encourage them to sit close to me and actually instructed me to flirt with them and make contact.
When one of these boys seemed sufficiently interested and found her approval, she would blatantly invite him over again and set up a sort of chaperoned date where i was glammed up completely, make-up, hairdo, wearing my sexiest eveninggown for my "boyfriend",who was a shy and unexperienced young man and totally nervous at meeting a stunning sophisticated young lady like me. These evenings were spent teaching us youngsters how to behave on a date. This went from holding hands, him putting his hand around my waist an holding me to giving eachother furtive little kisses. Later in the evening we would learn to slowdance with mothers very specific instructions how to hold and caress eachother, look into eachother's eyes and behave as a couple in love in general. If this all went well we were back on the sofa for the final act of the evening. The deep sensual kissing and making out scene. If mother was convinced we were doing it right she would leave us alone for a while so we could practice being in love as she called it. By this time my conditioning and girl lessons had me reacting to the situation as any delicate sexually awakening teenage lady would. I loved every minute of it and moaned softly under my "man's" kisses and caresses and was actually close to orgasm. Mother had won and and at that moment i never wanted to go back to being a boy ever again.........


Part 2

.....After that first experience mother was of course totally delighted with my initial reaction. I myself was both excited and terribly confused but i didn't get much time to think about it as mother wasn't finished with me yet. From that moment onward i was to be a young lady permanently and mother actually made me burn all my boys stuff myself in the back garden. I was now completely immersed in a world of femininity. My closets were filled with skirts, blouses and row upon row of the prettiest eveningdresses, ballgowns and cocktailwear. I had more highheeled shoes than any girl i had ever known and my drawers contained nothing but the finest undies all in silks satins and lace.... I was also taken out of school to be homeschooled, which mainly consisted of learning to be a complete utterly feminine young miss of good standing. Never got to see the boy again as mother had more grown up partners in mind for an eligable classy young lady like myself and didn't want me to be tied to a permanent boyfriend before i had some more experience in dating matters.
At that time mother's friend mrs.Franklin started bringing her older brother George along when visiting. George was a much older man and i was to treat him like a friendly surrogate grandad. This meant me going all girly and flirty around him whilst keeping up the appearance of it being totally innocent. I was to give him little kisses on the cheak at arriving and going, sitting (too)close to him, accepting compliments and little presents and letting him caress and innocently hold me as any loving grandaughter would. I was to be a serious tease. Contrary to my earlier boy admirer George had been briefed on my little secret but according to mother he had said that someone who was as feminine as me could in all honesty only be regarded as totally female and should be completely respected and treated as any young lady would expect to be treated.(and i should mention that George was in no way a gay man).....Even though it was initially all kept very innocent i realy enjoyed my role and to my surprise started to get disturbingly erotic feelings for this elderly gentleman.  The attentions of this experienced manly man sort of gave me goosebumps and made me feel even more feminine and sexy than i already did.

I guess mother had noticed this and actually encouraged it. As George was quite wealthy and a rather handsome well dressed man (for his age...he was in his late sixties), mother thought he was a bit of a catch and again set me up to get closer to him. She innocently had him and his sister over for dinner and cocktails. We were all dressed up to the nines in glamourous eveningwear and it was all a very festive and classy do untill mother found an excuse for her and mrs. Franklin to leave me and George alone for the evening(think it was something like a friend falling ill). I had beforehand already been instructed to be very very sweet to George tonight and to get romantic. Outside my knowledge, and in not so many words George had been told about me having a little crush on him. So using my experience of my earlier date together with my flirting and teasing lessons (and a few drinks) it didn't take much time before George took me in his strong arms and gave me my first romantic kiss. I was totally blown away by the feelings this elderly man awoke in me and i couldn't help returning the kiss as passionately as i could and clinging to him fervently to continue this romantic mouthcontact. My arms were around his neck caressing him and i was softly moaning inbetween kisses whilst George whispered sweet words of love in my ears. This continued for the rest of the evenng without either of us going further than sweet caresses, deep passionate kisses and a gentle hand on my nylonclad knees. We didn't let on much when mother and mrs. Franklin returned and we said goodbye with a little loving kiss on the lips but the triumphant smile on mother's face told me she knew exactly what happened..................

Friday, November 30, 2012

New version of old piccie.

Reworked this for use as a profile pic on this US site i'm on.... Like it so much i think it should be on here too.


Sunday, September 30, 2012

Make out!

Something to go with one of the earlier comics. Just couldn;t resist some movement though i'm not totally satisfied with the result yet. May work on it a bit more but it will do for now.


Saturday, September 8, 2012

Ruffleena....

Looks quite vanilla at first sight but is probably the darkest one up to now. Could never have written this myself as i'm not really suited for the submissive role. Met Peggy Sue on fictionmania a few years ago and we liked eachothers stuff. Sadly never heard from her since but she was great at these rather subtle but sick descriptions of submissiveness. I supplied the images, the general story outline and the final outlook. Still totally love this one as it really is a serious mindfuck.



I know that you really don't want to need a strong man, but you just can't help it, can you? You know your body and your heart scream to have him throbbing hard as he views your satin draped helplessness.......Yes yes, my little lovey, a strong man is what you need to hold on to and thank god George likes you as he does or you'd be so very lonely.Tonight you will both walk romantically down the beach at sunset as he pours his commanding essence over you and sets your little girlish heart into flames with thoughts of becoming his lovely dutiful wife.........................

Sunday, August 19, 2012

the Pageant

AND A LITTLE BONUS.....
Almost as if in a trance i had kissed him back and opened my lips to let his thick muscular tongue enter.

Friday, August 17, 2012

YES,....you WILL buy me THAT DRESS...

....because you know you really want to..........i know you do....just say it to yourself......: I really want to buy Saskia that fabulous dress.......i really really want to........(lol)

I deserve it.......
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Sunday, August 12, 2012

Mmmmmm......

Originally from one of my videothingies. Actually the only one that is vanilla enough to still be allowed on youtube. Click on the image to go there.


Saturday, August 4, 2012

Nice legs...

Yeah, i do have quite nice legs and i do know how to use em.(lol). Also added more musical fun in my links section. Love that Toy Dolls clip. Bloody weirdo's.


Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Oooops!

Used to use these small silly piccies on forums when people weren't sufficiently nice to moi. That was in the past before i turned into a saint of course.

Saskia/Zee (aka mother Theresa)


Only joking......

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

More recovered.

Strange how much of ones life is still online somewhere. Had quite a few piccies and other stuff parked on imageshack.com(bloody handy place) for use on forums and other semi-public sites. Revived my account i'd almost forgotten about and found a heap of silly stuff. Here's a first taste. Will also push the comic a bit down the page so you get a better view i hope.

Saskia x

Yes, i AM a smoker......




More retrieved Art

Bit of work done on the details. One of my early ones i managed to save from the rubble.

I like a bit of romance........



Saturday, July 28, 2012

Another retro piccie

Just to keep it a bit balanced. Me looking good is an important part of this blog stuff too. I'm a vain bitch even if it's about images that go back a few years.


Thursday, July 26, 2012

Bride(reluctant)

Another comic. Made it a few years back but dit a bit of work on it recently to give it a bit of a boost. If the full-size view gets hampered by the blog-info(happens when stuff gets to the top of the page sometimes) i recommend downloading the file.(rightclick>save as - may not work in Firefox as it tends to save imagefiles with an incorrect extension)


Friday, July 13, 2012

Prim and proper..........

And then there are moments i really get off on portraying an utterly decent and delicate headscarf wearing upper class lady.


Just summink silly........

Made this once for a short animation clip i once started but never finished about pervy lesbian barbies. Just found it (and the rest of the footage which i may edit into something fun one day afterall-who knows).

video

Sunday, July 8, 2012

New shoes!

By far not the highest heels in my collection but they are cute as hell. Have a serious shoe fetish and have real problems passing a ladies shoeshop without going in and worse buying new shoes i don't really need. Quite some hot shoes to be had at the time too. Serious heels are back with a vengeance. I love it.....


Thursday, July 5, 2012

TG art stuff coming but not yet right now......

Tried to put up some of my TG(pp) artwork on here but had a few problems with the sizes. They are comics with textballoons so they should come in a size that's readable and i didn't manage to do that here so i will have to cut them up or host them externally to make that work without changing the whole layout of the blog. I will do so in the future but it will take some time and work.For now you'll have to do with another of my little gif animations. Take-out from one my little video's

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Sunday, July 1, 2012

Still.....

....doin' stuff on here against my better judgement as i find i have to do way too much promoting to get a bit of attention. That was a feckin' lot better in the old days before the masses took over the web. It's becoming hard work and i do enough of that already and this should be fun, innit..........So here's a few simple piccies. Nothing especially sexy or kinky but i'm still a bloke in a frock which is supposed to turn people on as i've been told.









Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Lucid moment!

As i said before i kinda lost acces to my favourite files after crashing my computer once again but in a lucid moment i remembered that i had sent most of em through email at some point. So i checked my old online email account and found loads of em there as attachments that were still on some email server to download. Happy as hell now as i'm sorta back at warstrength and able to get you some cool stuff. Found things i had almost forgotten about myself. Few of em here now and others for later posts. Enjoy!

Saskia/Zee xxx

small animated gif loop - cute innit...........

 .....and me in frilly dress mode...

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Bit by bit recovering my history....

Beginning to recover a few of my old piccies and files now i'm on a new computer. Loads more stuff to come if everything works out. For now a few real oldies.







Thursday, June 21, 2012

Serious frocks!

I do like a nice formal frock. Preferably something stylish and a bit fifties moviestar. The pic is about 9 or ten years old. Still have the dress but i fear i will have to loose a few pounds to fit into it now. It's also wonderfull restrictive. One feels really vulnerable and helpless in a confection like this. Dependant on the kindness of strangers and stuff(lol).



Saskia/Zee xxxx

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Saskia's first entry...Hi there...

Been ages since i did stuff like this(having a blog and stuff). Used to be all over the web, had yahoo-gtoups, 360 pages, stuff on myspace, multiply and loads of other stuff but i got bored and life took some turns, It just happens. Now quite happy to do some online stuff again. Think i still have something to  contribute.
Am a rather attractive 54 year old transvestite who's been out(and about) for the biggest part of his/her life. Bit of a pervert with a brain and not to be messed with. Into subtle eroticism with a bite. Serious dresser upper, eveningwear, bride-stuff, high glam, silks and satins, shoes, wigs, ff stockings all the trimmings. And very senior men(mmmmmmmm.....)! So here is bit of me. Bit hampered as most of my files are still on the harddrive of my old crashed computermachine thingy. Hope to retrieve that.

So here is me......


......and me being hot on cam some years back.......

My most recent pics, about 2 years back. Lost the taste of constant selfphotography and publishing a bit as it sorta makes you a japanese tourist to your own life. At a certain point you get your kicks from the resulting pics instead of from the experience itself and that gets weird.


And another bit of old webcamvideo.................

Think that should be it for the moment as i don't wanna give everything away in my first post. More about me and my likes and dislikes in posts to come.

Kisses from Saskia/Zee XXXXXX

Vdeo's removed through new puritan blogger rules 

Mother's ex-son really needed a suitable role model...

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